{"id":844,"date":"2023-03-22T00:12:30","date_gmt":"2023-03-21T21:12:30","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.urlahaber.net\/?p=844"},"modified":"2023-03-22T00:12:31","modified_gmt":"2023-03-21T21:12:31","slug":"kimseye-etmem-sikayet-aglarim-ben-halime","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.urlahaber.net\/index.php\/kimseye-etmem-sikayet-aglarim-ben-halime\/","title":{"rendered":"Kimseye etmem \u015fikayet, a\u011flar\u0131m ben halime"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p>Dinledi\u011finde kalbini s\u0131zlatan, bir c\u00fcmlesiyle bile i\u00e7ini burkan baz\u0131 \u015fark\u0131lar vard\u0131r hani. En co\u015fkulu oldu\u011fun zamanlarda dahi kula\u011f\u0131na \u00e7al\u0131nd\u0131\u011f\u0131 vakit g\u00f6zlerini dolduran, ruhuna kara bulutlar\u0131 indiren par\u00e7alar. Fark\u0131nda olmadan e\u015flik etmeye ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131n ve kendini b\u0131rak\u0131p \u015fark\u0131n\u0131n girdab\u0131nda kayboldu\u011fun o h\u00fcz\u00fcnl\u00fc besteler\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201cKimseye etmem \u015fikayet\u201d i\u015fte tam da b\u00f6yle bir \u015fark\u0131. M\u00fczeyen Senar, \u015eevval Sam, Sertab Erener, Funda Arar gibi \u015fark\u0131c\u0131lar\u0131n yan\u0131 s\u0131ra Kartallar Y\u00fcksek U\u00e7ar dizisinin bir b\u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcnde Sadri Al\u0131\u015f\u0131k\u2019\u0131n da seslendirdi\u011fi nihavent makam\u0131ndaki Klasik T\u00fcrk M\u00fczi\u011fi eseri. \u015eark\u0131n\u0131n s\u00f6zlerini yazan \u0130hsan Raif Han\u0131m\u2019\u0131n bir hayk\u0131r\u0131\u015f\u0131d\u0131r asl\u0131nda bu \u015fark\u0131. 1800\u2019l\u00fc y\u0131llar\u0131n sonunda hen\u00fcz 13 ya\u015f\u0131nda olan bir k\u0131z \u00e7ocu\u011funun ellerinden kay\u0131p giden gelecek hayallerine bir at\u0131ft\u0131r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><strong>Hayaller \u00fclkesi Ta\u015f Konak\u2019ta ge\u00e7en mutlu bir \u00e7ocukluk<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u0130kinci Abd\u00fclhamit d\u00f6neminin tan\u0131nm\u0131\u015f vezirlerinden biri olan Mehmet Raif K\u00f6se\u2019nin valilik g\u00f6revi nedeniyle Beyrut\u2019ta d\u00fcnyaya g\u00f6zlerini a\u00e7an \u0130hsan Raif, \u00e7ocukluk y\u0131llar\u0131n\u0131 Adana\u2019da ge\u00e7irir. Yine babas\u0131n\u0131n g\u00f6revi sebebiyle 12 ya\u015f\u0131ndayken \u0130stanbul\u2019a ta\u015f\u0131n\u0131rlar ve ya\u015fanan hazin \u00f6yk\u00fc de bu \u015fekilde ba\u015flar. Varl\u0131kl\u0131 bir ailenin k\u0131z\u0131 olmas\u0131 ve babas\u0131n\u0131n g\u00f6sterdi\u011fi ilgiyle m\u00fczik, edebiyat ve Frans\u0131zca dersleri al\u0131r. Edebiyata olduk\u00e7a fazla ilgi duyar. Ta\u015f Konak\u2019ta mutlu bir \u00e7ocukluk ya\u015fayan \u0130hsan Raif o zamanlar\u0131 &#8220;O g\u00fcnler ba\u015fka bir sem\u00e2 alt\u0131nda, tomurcuk g\u00fcllerin a\u00e7t\u0131\u011f\u0131, u\u00e7ar\u0131 g\u00f6n\u00fcllerin co\u015ftu\u011fu hayal \u00fclkesiydi&#8221; diye h\u00fcz\u00fcnle anar ve &#8220;\u015fiirin, musikinin, sanat\u0131n beslendi\u011fi edebiyat mek\u00e2n\u0131\u201d olarak anlat\u0131r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><strong>Bir \u00e7ocu\u011fun duyulmayan \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131klar\u0131<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u0130hsan Raif, k\u0131z karde\u015fi Belk\u0131s ile oyun oynad\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir g\u00fcn tan\u0131mad\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir adam konaktaki M\u0131s\u0131rl\u0131 Arap bac\u0131lar\u0131 kand\u0131rarak i\u00e7eri dalar. Bu adam k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck k\u0131z\u0131n \u00e7ocuklu\u011funu ve gen\u00e7li\u011fini \u00e7alacak olan Reji Memuru Mehmet Ali\u2019dir. Daha \u00f6nce hi\u00e7 g\u00f6rmedi\u011fi bu ki\u015fi \u0130hsan Raif\u2019i ka\u00e7\u0131rmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131r fakat \u00e7ocuklar\u0131n \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131klar\u0131yla \u0130hsan\u2019a hi\u00e7 dokunamadan oradan ka\u00e7ar. Bu olay onun \u0131zd\u0131rap dolu g\u00fcnler ya\u015famas\u0131na neden olur \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc babas\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kan dedikodular y\u00fcz\u00fcnden hen\u00fcz k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir \u00e7ocuk olan k\u0131z\u0131n\u0131 bu adamla evlendirmeye kalkar. \u0130hsan Raif g\u00fcnlerce g\u00f6z ya\u015f\u0131 d\u00f6ker, kar\u0131s\u0131 Servet Han\u0131m haftalarca yalvar\u0131r fakat Mehmet Raif\u2019in karar\u0131 de\u011fi\u015fmez. Saltanat mensuplar\u0131yla denk e\u011fitimler alan bu k\u0131z \u00e7ocu\u011fu, ba\u015fka bir kad\u0131nla birliktelik ya\u015famas\u0131na ve \u00e7ocu\u011fu olmas\u0131na ra\u011fmen 24 ya\u015f\u0131ndaki bu adamla zorla evlendirilir ve \u0130zmir\u2019e gelin olarak g\u00f6nderilir.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><strong>Ac\u0131yla per\u00e7inlenmi\u015f bir \u015fark\u0131<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>1890 y\u0131l\u0131n\u0131n may\u0131s ay\u0131nda hen\u00fcz 13 ya\u015f\u0131ndayken vapura bindirilip \u0130zmir\u2019e s\u00fcrg\u00fcn edilen \u0130hsan Raif, \u00e7ocuklu\u011funu emanet etti\u011fi \u0130stanbul\u2019a son kez bakar. \u00d6yle ya uzun y\u0131llar bir daha g\u00f6remeyecektir bu \u015fehri. Evlili\u011finin \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc ay\u0131nda hamile kal\u0131r. 14\u2019\u00fcnde \u00e7ocu\u011fu olur. \u00c7ocukken \u00e7ocu\u011fu olan \u0130hsan\u2019\u0131n evlili\u011fi do\u011fal olarak iyi gitmez. \u00c7ocuklu\u011funu \u00e7ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck k\u0131z\u0131n zorla kurdurulan yeni d\u00fcnyas\u0131n\u0131 da mahveder Mehmet Ali. \u0130stanbul\u2019dan gelen mektup ile di\u011fer kad\u0131n\u0131n\u0131n ve \u00e7ocu\u011fun oldu\u011funu \u00f6\u011frenen \u0130hsan Raif kaleminden i\u015fte o kederli c\u00fcmleler d\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcr.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Kimseye etmem \u015fikayet, a\u011flar\u0131m ben halime,<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Titrerim m\u00fccrim (su\u00e7lu) gibi bakt\u0131k\u00e7a istikbalime,<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Perde-i zulmet (karanl\u0131k perdesi) \u00e7ekilmi\u015f korkar\u0131m ikbalime,<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Titrerim m\u00fccrim gibi bakt\u0131k\u00e7a istikbalime.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><strong>Ge\u00e7 kalm\u0131\u015f mutluluk, erken gelen \u00f6l\u00fcm<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 onca k\u00f6t\u00fc \u015feye ra\u011fmen mutlu olmay\u0131 d\u00fc\u015fleyen ve bunun i\u00e7in \u00e7abalayan \u0130hsan Raif, kocas\u0131 i\u00e7in \u015f\u00f6yle s\u00f6ylemi\u015ftir. &#8220;Kadehlerde i\u00e7ip da\u011f\u0131taca\u011f\u0131na bana bir yudum a\u015fk\u0131n\u0131 verse, d\u00fcnyan\u0131n d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f\u00fc, hayat\u0131n ak\u0131\u015f\u0131 de\u011fi\u015firdi&#8230;&#8221;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ba\u015fka kad\u0131nlarla birlikte olmaya devam eden ve alkole d\u00fc\u015fk\u00fcn kocas\u0131ndan 14 y\u0131l sonra ailesini ikna ederek kurtulur \u0130hsan Raif. Bu s\u00fcre\u00e7te 3 tane \u00e7ocu\u011fu olur. \u0130kinci evlili\u011fini 32 ya\u015f\u0131nda yapar ama kocas\u0131 itaat g\u00f6stergesi olarak elini \u00f6pt\u00fcrmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmas\u0131 y\u00fcz\u00fcnden evlili\u011fi yaln\u0131zca bir g\u00fcn s\u00fcrer. \u00dc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc evlili\u011fi bir a\u015fk evlili\u011fi olur nihayetinde. 1914 y\u0131l\u0131nda 35 ya\u015f\u0131nda Ta\u015f Konak\u2019ta yazar \u015eahabettin S\u00fcleyman ile nik\u00e2h\u0131 k\u0131y\u0131l\u0131r. Edebiyat d\u00fcnyas\u0131nda \u015fiirleriyle kendine bir yer edinir. Yahya Kemal\u2019den, Ru\u015fen E\u015fref\u2019e, Faz\u0131l Ahmet\u2019ten Ahmet Ha\u015fim\u2019e geni\u015f bir entelekt\u00fcel \u00e7evre edinir. Konakta edebiyat partileri d\u00fczenler, \u015fiirler okunur, m\u00fczikler icraat edilir. 1921 y\u0131l\u0131nda \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131klar\u0131 Avrupa seyahatinde e\u015fi gribe yakalanarak beklenmedik \u015fekilde \u00f6lene kadar \u00e7ok mutlu bir evlili\u011fi olur. Yas d\u00f6neminde yan\u0131nda olan ve onun i\u00e7in M\u00fcsl\u00fcman olarak H\u00fcsrev ismini alan Frans\u0131z Bell ile d\u00f6rd\u00fcnc\u00fc olan son evlili\u011fini 42 ya\u015f\u0131nda yapar. Ta\u015f Kona\u011f\u0131 kiraya veren \u00e7ift \u0130svi\u00e7re\u2019ye yerle\u015fir. Z\u00fcrih\u2019te g\u00f6l kenar\u0131nda ya\u015fayan \u0130hsan Raif bir g\u00fcn kar\u0131n sanc\u0131lar\u0131yla hastaneye kald\u0131r\u0131l\u0131r. Apandisit oldu\u011fu anla\u015f\u0131lan ve ameliyat masas\u0131ndan kalkamayan \u015fair g\u00f6zlerini hayata yumar. 28 May\u0131s 1926 y\u0131l\u0131nda 49 ya\u015f\u0131nda A\u015fiyan\u2019a defnedilen \u0130hsan Raif, ard\u0131nda b\u00fcy\u00fck ac\u0131lar ya\u015fayan H\u00fcsrev\u2019i b\u0131rak\u0131r ve Frans\u0131z a\u015f\u0131k o tarihten itibaren s\u0131rra kadem basar.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><strong>NOT<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Kurtulu\u015f Sava\u015f\u0131 s\u0131ras\u0131ndaki mitinglerde, ate\u015fli nutuklar ve \u015fiirlerle milli m\u00fccadeleye destek veren \u0130hsan Raif, hece veznini kullanan ilk T\u00fcrk kad\u0131n \u015fairdir. Yo\u011fun duygular ve a\u015fk i\u00e7erek kad\u0131ns\u0131 \u015fiirlerinin bir\u00e7o\u011fu kendisi ve ba\u015fka sanat\u00e7\u0131lar taraf\u0131ndan bestelenmi\u015ftir. O y\u0131llar ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 Ta\u015f Konak ise \u015fimdilerde \u015ei\u015fli Kaymakaml\u0131\u011f\u0131 olarak kullan\u0131lmaktad\u0131r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Eserleri:<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u2022&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; G\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131 (1914)<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u2022&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; Kad\u0131n ve Vatan (1914)<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u2022&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; A\u011flar\u0131m<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Dinledi\u011finde kalbini s\u0131zlatan, bir c\u00fcmlesiyle bile i\u00e7ini burkan baz\u0131 \u015fark\u0131lar vard\u0131r hani. En co\u015fkulu oldu\u011fun zamanlarda dahi kula\u011f\u0131na \u00e7al\u0131nd\u0131\u011f\u0131 vakit g\u00f6zlerini dolduran, ruhuna kara bulutlar\u0131 indiren par\u00e7alar. Fark\u0131nda olmadan e\u015flik etmeye ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131n ve kendini b\u0131rak\u0131p \u015fark\u0131n\u0131n girdab\u0131nda kayboldu\u011fun o h\u00fcz\u00fcnl\u00fc besteler\u2026 \u201cKimseye etmem \u015fikayet\u201d i\u015fte tam da b\u00f6yle bir \u015fark\u0131. M\u00fczeyen Senar, \u015eevval Sam, Sertab [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":10,"featured_media":845,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1,21],"tags":[23],"class_list":["post-844","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-genel","category-gundem","tag-elvan-karanfil"],"aioseo_notices":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.urlahaber.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/844","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.urlahaber.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.urlahaber.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.urlahaber.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/10"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.urlahaber.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=844"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/www.urlahaber.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/844\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":846,"href":"https:\/\/www.urlahaber.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/844\/revisions\/846"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.urlahaber.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/845"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.urlahaber.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=844"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.urlahaber.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=844"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.urlahaber.net\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=844"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}